Wednesday, February 5, 2014

How Being a Photographer has Helped me Learn to Love Myself

I've been thinking about this for sometime now, but it's only recently that I've really figured out the extent of the impact that my job as a photographer has had on me.

Self-image always seems to be a touchy subject. It breaks my heart when someone steps in front of my camera and tells me how un-photogenic they are, or apologizes for their hair, make-up, clothes, etc. They seem to think I'm disappointed with them somehow.  That couldn't be farther from the truth. Here are some important words, for all of my clients and all of my fellow photographers:

 I have never photographed anyone that I didn't think was beautiful. 

When I get home from a session or a wedding, the first thing I do is eagerly download all the photos from my memory cards, load them into Lightroom and look at each and every one of them. I think that "reveal" moment is one of the most exciting parts of what I do. I get butterflies. I get to see all these special moments between people, preserved forever. The beautiful, glowing smile of a new mother. The tears in a father's eyes as he gives away his daughter. The tender expression of a man as he poses with his soon-to-be wife. Sincere, carefree giggles shared between a couple that during their holiday session. The list goes on. Those are the most beautiful things I could ever hope to photograph. Those are the images that inspire me and stir my soul. 

It isn't just the moments I covet. I love the people I get to meet. I see so many diverse personalities and interesting and fun ideas. It keeps me on my toes and keeps every session and wedding fresh and exciting. Every person I have ever photographed has something truly beautiful about them, and not just on the inside. It might be a fantastic smile, beautiful eyes, skin, freckles, hair, or body. But everyone looks beautiful to me. 

So now I arrive at the meat of this post. Why is it that looking at photographs of myself I don't always see the same beauty I see in others? I'm always comparing myself to some ideal in my head. Why do I treat myself like that, when it would never occur to me to compare anyone else that way? There isn't a "right" way to look or be. I know that first hand, seeing so many beautifully different people. So why do my "flaws" stand out to me so much? 

I don't know what the answer is. Maybe it's slightly taboo to think highly of yourself in our culture? Maybe we're taught what the "ideal" human being looks like from a young age and struggle to a achieve that? Maybe being self-depricating has become incorrectly associated with humility? I can at least practice looking at myself the way I do others. It helps immensely.  

As I've practiced this over time, I've noticed that my unwillingness to be photographed has slowly faded. I'm concentrating on moments AND appearances, and finding the beauty in both. We're not anonymous human faces. We have beautiful lives and personalities and there are so many people to whom our beautiful faces are precious. 

Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Anniversary Session at Wagon Hill Farm

I'd been dying to take advantage of the gorgeous fall foliage for weeks, so when Kristen and Tim contacted me to do a session for their upcoming first anniversary I was thrilled. They were a very fun couple to shoot. They let me try out a few new techniques I've been experimenting with and the results are pretty awesome! Here are some of my favorite images from their session!

First, I'll show you the results of my little experiments. Below are two cinemagraphs I created from short videos taken during the session:

I'd love to do these for all my couples... any thoughts?

This image may be one of my favorites of the entire body of my work. It's a composite of 67 images using the Brenizer Method:

Thanks Kristen and Tim for indulging me! Here are the rest of my favorites:

Monday, October 7, 2013

Autumn Wallpaper Freebies

I spent this past rainy Sunday taking a few photos of the changing leaves outside my home. I thought I'd make them wallpaper sized for anyone looking for a seasonal background. Please enjoy, and don't miss the cover photo sizes available on my Facebook Page. 

Click the links below the image to download the full size wallpaper.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

Mary and Kevin - A Fall Maine Wedding

My last wedding of the 2013 season was beautiful. Mary and Kevin chose a perfect location, and it was an intimate, sweet affair. Held at York Harbor Inn overlooking the water on the most beautiful day, it was definitely one of my favorite weddings. Please enjoy this slideshow and don't forget to watch in HD! Below are a few of my favorite images as well.

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

How to Redeem your Groupon Voucher

Today is the first day of my Groupon campaign, so I thought I would write a post to help out any of you who have purchased the deal.

I operate by appointment only, and shoot on-location. I am currently booking into mid-September.

To redeem your voucher, you must contact me to arrange a session. You will receive a contract and a link to your personalized client portal. I require a 24-hour notice for session cancellations. Your voucher is valid for the full value as long as you make your appointment before the expiration date.
You will present your voucher at your session, and I'll redeem it then.

What your voucher includes:
-A 1 hour portrait session within 20 miles of Portsmouth, NH
-A 30 day online gallery to share with friends and family that will allow you to order prints and download your digital files
-A DVD containing all of your high-resolution, watermark free, digital files.

If you have any questions, don't hesitate to email me at!

Friday, August 2, 2013

Exciting News! Product Delivery

I'm very pleased to announce that Blue Locket Studios has switched over to two fabulous methods of photo delivery.

From now on, high resolution files will be sent out on a beautiful wooden USB drive. I believe opening your photos should be exciting and as a gift to my wonderful clients who have made it possible for me to follow my dreams I will be including something special and extra in each package I mail out.

Here is a look at how you can expect to receive your wedding photos:

 Each package will contain your usb drive, as well as a customized locket. Each one is different and includes a selected portrait from your wedding day.
 As a special gift, I have decided to include a 5x7 20 page wedding album with my favorite photos of your wedding. This book is from the same supplier that I order all my wedding albums from, which includes a variety of options for covers (my favorite being the glass cover albums) in many different sizes. This is a great opportunity to see the excellent quality of these albums should you choose to order one.
 The prints in these albums of are extremely high quality and printed on real photographic paper for optimal fidelity.

 I provide a wooden USB drive that will contain all your original, high resolution, watermark-free files, as well as your wedding highlights slideshow.

The newest addition to my product delivery is your own personalized online client gallery, through the amazing service from,  from which you can share images to Facebook, Pinterest, and more. You can also select your favorites and order prints directly from this website. Should you decide to order a wedding album, I will have easy access to the favorites that you'd like to include. This is a fantastic way to share your wedding with all your family and friends in a beautiful gallery. Your gallery will be online for 30 days, after which you will have the option to upgrade it to continue viewing and sharing photos through this gorgeous interface for a year.